Wednesday, May 21, 2014


we've had so much going on lately that i haven't even had time to pee! ok, i have peed. but i hardly get sleep, hardly have time to eat and when i do pee it's never alone. it's usually while holding a crying boy and making sure that the busy girl isn't going to burn the house down.

last weekend i went to Santa Barbara for an awesome girls trip. it was a beautiful house. even beautifuller weather (can you tell i watch too much Frozen?). and the time was spent with even better girls. we drank and ate too much. basked in the sun. drank and ate some more. played games (cards against humanity, anyone?!) it was a great weekend that made me even more tired than i already was but it was well worth it. can't wait for next year!

we are selling our house. yes, crazy news, i know. we bought our forever home and we cannot wait to get into it. it is currently being built! which is so exciting. next week we will be off to pick out finishes like floors and cabinets, counters and hardware. i can't wait!!!!! we are so fortunate to have bought our first home at the time we did. its been good to us and we hope the next family to live here will enjoy it as much as we have. the neighborhood is perfect, location couldn't be better and its really adorable.

both the kiddos are great. both growing like weeds. both sleeping well.

life is a whirlwind these days but i couldn't ask for a better one.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Bunny Bait

Easter projects are in full swing here at the marks residence. and it is one of my favorite things to do as a mama-make holidays fun and full of everlasting memories. i want my babies to look back and love the holidays as i do.

yesterday we dyed easter eggs and my ocd had to be reigned in. a lot. i've actually found this has to happen like all the time in this journey of parenting. m loved it. she plopped the eggs in, took them out, plopped them in again. repeat. they turned out beautiful. she asked me if we could do it again this morning. i didn't have any more hard boiled eggs so we decided to make bunny bait instead!

it was super easy and the finished product is real tasty. i know the easter bunny that comes to our house will be happy happy happy.


2 cups chex mix
2 cups pretzel sticks (i left this out because the bag mysteriously disappeared from the grocery store to my house….)
2 cups/1 bag white pop corn
1 bar white baking chocolate, melted (i used ghirardelli)
easter sprinkles
easter colored m&m's

Spread the chex mix, pretzels and pop corn onto a baking sheet lined with parchment.

Melt the chocolate in a double boiler.

Drizzle over the mix. Toss.

Add sprinkles and m&m's.

Let set. Be sure to add sprinkles after tossing or they will coat with chocolate and you won't be able to see them.

Package up to share with friends. or eat it. i did both.

and just in case the easter bunny needs an easter basket ideas, this is what i've done so far for m: sunscreen stick, play dough eggs, a bunny book, strawberry shortcake goldfish, sand shovel. (not pictured: new swimsuit, plastic baseball bat and tee ball with a T.) for d: new pacifiers, two baby toys, swim diaper and a mum teether. for daddy: swimsuit, tank top and t-shirt, new bbq tools. of course a few plastic eggs filled with treats in each basket too!

Circle of Moms

i am so lucky to be surrounded by so many wonderful moms. i have a few different circles of friends; in one of the groups we mainly stick to play dates with the kiddos and the other we do a girls night out once a month. i haven't been able to attend since the duke was born but i am really looking forward to our weekend away in May.

being a mom is tough. being a wife can be tough too. these are the two jobs that i have. to be a wonderful loving mom to my kids and be a fantastic wife to my husband. and i need support. we all need support. too often moms dig at other moms. judging. criticizing. snickering. its sickening. life is hard enough. we do not need to break each other down and make it harder. some cloth diaper. some don't. some breast feed. some don't. some breast feed for 3 years. some only 6 months. some moms lose the baby weight when they get home from the hospital. some lose it a year later. some mothers are single. some are married. some moms send their babies to day care. some don't. some moms stay home. some cannot.

it simply. does. not. matter.

all that matters is that you are doing what is RIGHT for YOUR family. that YOU and your FAMILY are HAPPY and thriving.

i pumped for m for 5 weeks and supplemented with formula. i nursed d for 2 weeks. too often, actually EVERY single time i am asked or it comes up that my children are bottle fed, i feel this unrelenting feeling to explain why. my head is screaming "i need to tell them it wasn't a choice!" "they have to know i went to an LC and it didn't work!" "they have to know i didn't give up!" (people have actually said to me "oh, so you gave up?") those last two words make me want to throw up. i did not give up. i tried. i was bleeding. scabbed. saying the F word with every suck. the pain made me curl my toes and cringe with tears. see, there i go again explaining why. i don't need to explain why i feed my babies the way i do. it works for our family. we are happy and thriving. period.

my point is, i am so lucky to have moms support my efforts as another mother. support me when i am crying and tired, support me when i am struggling, support me when life is peachy, support me and my family no matter what. i hope that i am encouraging to others and i hope that i give support to my mama friends like i have received from them.

Monday, March 17, 2014

one month

how has almost 5 weeks gone by?! my little peanut has grown so much and it makes me sad :( so happy he is healthy and growing but knowing this is my last little guy…it's a little hard to swallow.

duke is a happy camper when he is close to mama. he sleeps 4-5 hour stretches at night. sleeps most of the day. eats like a champ. is starting to smile and coo. makes my heart happy. happy one month of life my boy.

boss has been home for 5 weeks and we've been trying to do as many fun things as possible while still getting a lot done. make that trying to get a lot done. because we haven't.


m is in a big girl bed now!!! and she loves it. the first night she never climbed out and in the mooring she called for daddy to come get her. thinking she still thought it was a crib. first nap was a success and seeing her cute (shocked) face walk down the hallway saying "i wake now!" was to die for. she was so proud!! since those awesome first two days we have found her outside (yes, that sounds horrible, i know) and she has come to the living room and our bedroom. otherwise nap time has been a little difficult. she likes playing in her kitchen. it doesn't really bother me. as long as she is in there and quiet.

we spent the day in cambria seeing the elephant seals and having lunch. it was 75 degrees and gorgeous. 

we have golfed two rounds as a family of four. m takes her driver and loves to putt at every green. duke has been a trooper. 

and daddy turned 30!!! such a special birthday. we had friends and family over for in'n'out burgers, beers and cake. perfect night. i am so lucky to have called him mine since he was 23. 23 sounds like forever ago! 7 years have gone so fast. i look forward to loving him, making memories together and raising our family for the next 30 years to come!! 

(this is our first and only photo as a family of 4. sad. we need another one when i don't have 7 inches of black roots and duke is not sleeping…)

Sunday, March 2, 2014

The Duke

Duke arrived 2.13.14 at 7:50 am. he weighed 7 lbs 12 oz and was 19 3/4 inches. perfection.

so far we have been adjusting well! especially Mila. she is doing so great in her new role as Big Sister. we've of course had our moments of frustration and some tears but things are getting better day by day. in fact, today is our first day without daddy! he went hunting…to save his sanity i'm sure…which leaves me wondering what i get to do to save my sanity….probably an hour long mani/pedi but hey, i'll take it. i've managed to get a few loads of laundry in, lunch made, her lady bug tent assembled (thanks to some help from shay) and both babies are sleeping. ahhhh. i should be sleeping but i have to play catch up on a few things around the house. 

duke has been a fantastic sleeper and is staying awake for longer stretches everyday. he is completely different than m was as a baby and i am loving every second. he definitely loves his mommy. m was so early to crawl, walk and become a toddler so i am hoping this boy stays baby a little longer. looking back, i think i was 'so excited' for all of her firsts that i didn't soak up the baby phase as much as i should have. so this time i am. a lot. 

 daddy passed out during the delivery. mommy threw up after my spinal. quite the experience if you as me. i never want to do it again. 
 m was so so excited to meet her baby brother. she loved his toes. his tiny hands. his ears. his belly button was quite interesting and so was his penis. lol. every time she touched his hands or toes she would say "tiny toes!" in the highest pitch voice. it was seriously to die for. i wish i could've bottled it up so i could keep it forever. 

baby boy had a very high bilirubin level and tested positive for Coombs. we have different blood and i'm pretty sure that had to do with the positive test result. with so many nurses in and out of our room, checking me, checking duke, taking blood and blah blah blah, i really have no idea what coombs is. other than it can be dangerous for the boy. so on our third day, he ended up under the phototherapy lights for almost 24 hours. it was so sad. i knew it would make him better and allow us to go home but try telling a hormonal, beyond tired and sore mama that she can't hold her 3 day old baby all day and all night long…. not a happy camper. 

Friday, January 24, 2014

20 days

praise. the. lord.

there are only 20 days left in this pregnancy. and i am so excited.

i cry. i get pissed. like royally pissed. then cry more. and then some more after i apologize. nothing sounds good to eat. i'm tired. and then i cry because i'm hungry and didn't get a long enough nap. this is my daily routine. lovely.

i'm not excited that m will not be "the only one" anymore. i'm not excited that i will never be the LOOK of pregnant again. but i am thrilled that this baby boy will be out of me and in our arms. he is giving me a run for my money. throwing up. back ache. no sleep. going so nutty in my tummy that it literally hurts my skin. we aren't opposed to meeting you early little d :)


we've been battling MINE! NO! MOMMY TIME OUT! and everything else toddlers love to say to their parents when they don't want to listen. she is two-that's for sure. being that my temper and patience are both something i'm acquiring less and less of with every passing moment, i'm discovering the firm tone doesn't work as well as the asking nicely way of words.

potty training. kind of. we aren't in the serious-diapers-in-the-trash phased yet but we are getting close. she tells me when she has to poop, then hides. tells me when she is peeing. she hates hates hates having her diaper changed. she doesn't like the potty yet. so, we'll get there. i'm not in a rush. baby d arriving is enough of a change for the time being. panties and big girl beds can wait!

she knows her colors. can count to 10. can sing her ABC's…well, 20 out of the 26 letters for sure. she is so smart and makes me laugh and smile every day.

when she is hurt she says 'come herrrreeee' because we say that to her. a lot. "mila sad" is also a very common sentence. she know's her emotions, she knows to tell someone not to hurt her, 'my body'.

 we had a small baby shower for duke and it was perfect. i love the girlfriends that i have and duke is so lucky to be welcomed into this amazing family. 
 rachel is due with a boy 10 weeks after me! so excited for my brother and sis-in-law!!

 we've had some crazy warm weather here in cali. i'm trying to resist napping and enjoy getting my vitamin D! and no, i'm not naked.
my bunco girls nights are something i always look forward to. we went to Basil for dinner-my favorite thai food. it was probably the last time i will be this pretty for awhile!

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Charred Corn Chop Salad

this is simply heaven on a plate. we love it. it is healthy, fresh and just perfect. it's on our weekly food calendar every week and man, it really is just it for us. even boss man loves it. he requests it.

2 C corn
1 sweet potato, cubed (I use 5-8 small ones or a few large)
Half a red onion, chopped
1 T olive oil

1/2 LB ground turkey (I use up to 2 depending on leftovers)
1 t ground cumin
1 can black beans

1/2 C sour cream
1/2 C buttermilk
1/2 t chili powder
1 bunch scallions

4 romain hearts, chopped
1 avocado
1 C grated cheese (we like pepperjack)

Mix buttermilk, sour cream, whites of scallions and chili powder. Refrigerate until ready to eat.

Toss corn, sweet potatoes and red onion with olive oil and salt and pepper to taste. Bake @ 400 degrees for 30 minutes; stir every 10 minutes.

Cook ground turkey. Add black beans, cumin and 1/4 water. Simmer. (I don't add water; just leave juice from ground turkey)

Divide lettuce to plates, add ground turkey mixture, sweet potato mixture, greens of scallions. Top with cheese, avocado and dressing!