Wednesday, December 31, 2014

see ya social media

i deleted my instagram account recently. and i'm not really sure how i feel about it. i miss it. my thumb automatically hits the photography icon on my phone and then heads for instagram app. but it's not there. i'll be honest, it happened about 30 times in the first few hours after i deleted it. seriously. that's code for #iamanaddict. ew. i was scrolling through at 3 am after rocking the boy. i was trolling while the kids napped. while i made dinner. in the car at a red light. it shouldn't be that way but i know it is for so many people. like, a lot.

it began to feel like a life competition. everyones pictures needed to be better than the post before. i found myself taking my phone places i wouldn't normally take it all because i thought maybe i'd take an instagram worthy photo. so. dumb. if someone didn't 'like' a picture, was it intentionally a stab? was the 'one-upper' really one-upping? or was she really just so damn sure that her life was perfect? am i the only one who feels this way?

i haven't used Facebook in years. the only reason i have an active account it for the mommy groups of friends i have. and thats the only way they invite to birthdays, playdates and party's. what happened to a phone call? text? email? snail mail? i get that is works for people. i get people love it and thinks it's the easier way to communicate. but what about the people who want to belong to these groups but hate social media? like me? i want to be at your play date! i want to go to your party! i love the friendship we have! but can you call me maybe?

there are for sure things i miss. i may even get it again. who knows. right now i am enjoying not knowing every single thing there is to know about everyone. because let's be honest; do we really care that you're at the park? or that you have a coffee? i'm going to guess not. and i totally think people don't care about our park adventures either. :)

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

she's 3!

every time i write a milestone blog, usually about a new age, i scream HOW? how is this possible? how is she 3 already?! well, whether i like it or not, she is. and to be totally honest, i like it. i like how 3 feels. i like how 3 looks on her. she's perfect. she says the darndest things. she has a new haircut. she's grown so tall. she loves her brother. she throws fits. she growls when she's pissed. (it's kinda funny but i try real hard not to laugh).

at 3, mila:

can count to 13
can write the letter M…and try's to write the rest of her name
knows her shapes and colors
enjoys doing flash cards
loves to paint and do anything artistic
loves to explore outside
is an outstanding dancer
is potty trained!
loves her friends and to go to school
is the biggest helper; especially in the kitchen
has a very kind, sensitive heart
can scooter like crazy
is afraid of masks and spooky things
but loves the fastest rides
loves her daddy with all her heart
her "song" is all about the bass. yes, we let her listen to a song that says bitches. and is about an ass.

we went to disneyland to celebrate our little girls birthday. the faster the ride the better! it brought us immense joy to hear her squeal with delight and burst with laughter as the rides whipped around, up and down. on the way home she said "mom, i had the best time. thank you dad!" ugh. my heart officially melted one more time. like it does on the daily. she's the best.

oh, and she now calls us mom & dad. i beg her to call me mama and she adamantly says "no mom". 3 going on 13…..

Sunday, November 30, 2014

off the radar

we moved!!! yessssss. we moved into our stunningly beautiful new home a week ago and it has been heaven. well, kind of. it's been great. it's been busy. it's been sleepless. it's been happy. the kids have transitioned great. we've gotten a lot done in the short 7 days we've been here and i am feeling a little bit better about it all the time.

i skipped any fall decor and went straight for the christmas decor. we got our little happy tree the day after thanksgiving. it's small and beautiful. m helped decorate it and her eyes were filled with glee as she placed each ornament and then stood back to admire what she had done. every morning she is just as surprised as she was before that it's still there! elvira the elf has arrived but i don't do all the crazy. she finds her spot and rests there until christmas eve.

this little fancy nancy is going to be 3 years old in 2 weeks! i have no idea how that happened but, she is amazing. so funny. so sweet. we are going to Disneyland in 3 days to celebrate. just her, mama and daddy. SO looking forward to showering her with love and attention. she is going to have a blast. her gig and pop took her to the Frozen sing-a-long at the Performing Arts Center tonight. i can't wait for her to be home so i can hear all about it! 

Monday, November 10, 2014

11 days!

11 days until we close escrow on the new pad! this has been a long time coming. i mean really, a really long time. 7 months to be exact. we've been so lucky to have a cozy place to stay for the last 4 months-we forever are in debt to my parents. i am sure my dad cannot wait to lay on the couch and watch jeopardy uninterrupted but i am also sure he will miss sharing the breakfast bar with mila every single morning. i bet my mom is looking forward to no longer having toys strewn everywhere, in every room but i am also pretty certain she will miss dukes snuggles and milas hugs. as much as i didn't think it true, i will miss being here too.

duke is 9 months old. what?! i say this in every monthly update but how is this possible? he is walking behind his little walker toys, has 3 teeth- 2 on the bottom and 1 on the top, he loves to eat and wants what everyone else is having-not baby food, he is such a snuggle bug and i loooove it!

mila is almost 3 and the biggest joy to our hearts. we are taking her to disneyland in 3 weeks. it's going to be a blast! duke will be staying home with my parents so we can fully enjoy every joyful second with her. she can count to 13, recite her abc's, knows all her colors and many shapes, loves to do flashcards, color and paint, requests to watch Doc McStuffins and Sofia the First A LOT and has a mile long list for Santa. but don't tell her she has to sit on his lap because that is not going to happen. she is requesting daddy's lap and handing him the list instead of telling the big guy what she'd like.

i had someone tell me the other day that she read my blog, like months and months back (scary), and loved how real i was. how honest my words were. that was a compliment to me and made my heart happy. i try to be as real as possible. in my words here, my photos on instagram and the links i share on my fb feed. which is all i do on fb. life is messy. life is happy. life is so many things but one thing it is definitely not? perfect. i browse instagram a lot and i come across all kinds of lives. i don't think of them as a 'feed'. to many people, they are lives. pictures of the daily. in and out. up and down. some are the most artistic photos. some are the nitty gritty-tears, poop, hardship, laughs. mine is all of those. i don't ever want to portray that the daily is perfect-without flaw, without tears and poop and laughter and love. my daily is a mix of it all and i hope that if you take away anything from my words here or photos there, it's that this life i have is real. 

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

dutch oven tri tip sandos

this recipe is a favorite in the marks house. i make it frequently because it's super duper easy and super duper delish.

you'll need:

1 tri tip
1 yellow onion
pepper plant seasoning & bbq sauce
s & p
dutch oven
ciabatta rolls

pre heat oven 325.
brown the tri tip in a very hot iron skillet.
chop the onion and place in bottom of dutch oven.
season the meat generously with pepper plant seasoning, s & p, place on top of onion.

cook for 3-4 hours.
shred and serve on grilled ciabatta rolls with bbq sauce

i slice and butter the rolls then grill them on the cast iron skillet. they are seriously divine.

you can add cheese. serve with coleslaw, salad, beans. whatever you want. the leftovers are still amazing. so go. get this stuff and make it tomorrow!!! you won't regret it :)

a crazy calendar

a crazy calendar gives me anxiety. stresses me out. makes me feel out of control. really. as lame as it sounds it's true. and let me tell you, our calendar is nuts with a capitol N. i'm turning 28 on the 20th, plans with a girlfriend, plans with boss, family pictures, 4 halloween events plus finishing M's costume, praying we close escrow on time, packing my parents house, moving, Thanksgiving, Disneyland immediately after, baby shower two days after we get home, M is turning 3!!!! and then it's Christmas.

whoa. that is seriously crazy. all wonderful happy things that i know we will enjoy but…yeah.

i pictured moving into the new house before halloween, having carved pumpkins on our new porch, decorating and settling in. celebrating the holidays. celebrating 3 years of Mila. now that that isn't reality stinks but we will do the best we can to make the transition smooth and easy. i still can't wait to the holidays!! and i'm really looking forward to sleeping in a bedroom.

this boy. in his great uncles (what?!) cowboy hat. he is seriously to die for.
 we went to the pumpkin patch and let m fill the wagon as high as she wanted. we left with probably one of each kind of pumpkin and that's ok. 
 he's such a good daddy. m has been really in to crafts lately and i love it. it keeps her busy and she creates beauty.
we've been working on colors and counting and matching and shapes. it's so much fun to see her try so hard and succeed. she loves to learn. she is so bright. 

Wednesday, October 1, 2014


we are heading to the bay area this afternoon to visit family and go to ikea. seriously. i'm like a kid the night before christmas. i can't wait for tomorrow at 9:30. IKEAAAAAAA! i love it. they have great stuff for great prices and another bonus: not very many people where we live have it because the closest ikea is 3+ hours away. woop!

we sign contract for the new house next thursday which means we are like 30 days from moving in. yessssss. i am more excited about this news than i am about ikea. i cannot wait to see the finished product. we picked all of the interior finishes, bought our own hardware, are buying all new furniture for the dining and living, we get a playroom for the kids and the list goes on. it's going to be amazing. the perfect start to 2015!

here's a little peak into what we've chosen for the new digs:

flooring will be wood throughout, tile in the bathrooms, carpet in the bedrooms. granite on all countertops. we will be ripping out the island granite for butcher block with a different sink and faucet. also the backsplash will be removed and subway tile put in its place. (we are changing things after escrow because of the prices. what the builder is charging is seriously outrageous)

the new dining table is West Elm, white modern mid-century. the chairs are Restoration Hardware mid-century danish design; wood with metal bases. we bought an elk horn chandelier for the living space and a farm house light for the dining room. i am going to remove all of the lights they provided and sell them. not my style, but very nice. 

seriously can't wait!!!!

kiddos are great. i think they are ready to get back into our norm routine. i think we all our. including my parents. 

last week i worked Sunset's Savor the Central Coast put on by visit san luis obispo and sunset magazine. my friend jolie is the head of the Vision Team and i got to be apart for the second year. it was SO much work but so awesome. we spent 4 days at santa margarita ranch and one day working at Hearst Castle which was amazing. so cool to be behind the scenes in such a historic place that is sought upon by millions of people traveling through. awesome experience.